Wednesday, July 20, 2011

God has led us through His word!

Following vacation, you would say I should be relaxed, but I wasn't. Things still weren't normal! We still were "floundering"... We just didn't know what we were supposed to do about church, and what God's will was. Well He showed up, and showed out! We went back to the church Christopher was insisting on, and it was again, GREAT! However, my question was "how do I make a decision, when my husband can't go to church with me?" How do we do this. My answer came in the form of an "old" friend. She attends the church and is leaving this Sunday to go on a Mission Trip to Guana. (SN: please be in prayer for the Guana Mission Team). She came up to me just bubbling over and insisted that Fred and I must visit her small group on Tuesday night. Ok, let me just say, this was not a step I was ready to take. NO, NO, NO! I said yes on the outside, but my insides screamed "NO! I can't do this! I can't do it, I don't want to!". Reluctantly I talked to Fred about it and he said "let's try it". It was on a night he was off and at the Pastor's house, so it was a way he could find out about the church and meet the pastor, etc.... Well.... all I can say is WOW! What a blessing we received. The small group was exactly what we were looking for. The people there were uplifting, godly, understanding, above all strong Christians who wanted us to join with them and grow the kingdom of God! We were overwhelmed at some of the issues we had dealt with in the past at other churches and in general that were brought up and discussed and how the leader of the group led us back to the Bible and ultimately back to God each time. I left with a smile from the inside out! Fred was equally happy! We never felt like when we went through such a horrible situation at our past church that God would lead us here. We knew He had a plan, we just didn't know He would reveal it so quickly. He lead us 1. Through a terrible situation (because He knows the plans He has for us Jeremiah 29:11). 2. Through our child, and us being sensitive to his needs (and a little child shall lead them Isaiah11:6). 3. Through our godly steadfast friends (because, but there is a friend who sticketh closer than a brother. Proverbs 18 verse 24). Ultimately, he led us through His word! We are so excited to see what happens next! God is AWESOME all the time! And by the way, I'm relaxed now!!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Where I'm at (or where am I?)

I seem to be floundering... partly in due to a debilitating headache for the past 3 days. I've lost my sense of "what i'm doing", but in honesty, I think it's the calmness of life! The drama is gone, the craziness and hectic parts of my last 6 years has passed and i'm kind of at a loss for what's next. I know God has a purpose and a plan. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Christopher is pushing hard for us to go to one specific new church. Should I listen to him? That's what my parents did and it was the best decision for me. I on the other hand, want to visit one more. BUT.... Is it for selfish reasons???? Am I trying to get back what I feel I lost? I really didn't lose anything, I gained tons. I gained my family's respect, I gained time with my family, I gained an awareness of what ministry is and what it is not! Christopher has truly excelled away from the madness and drama of what where I was turned me into. He has had a very impressive summer with basketball
camp, and landing two solos in music camp next month. We leave for the beach with friends and family this weekend. Life is good, so why am I so torn. I need to turn back to the Word and let God lead the way. I think I've gone back to trying to figure things on my own, and I've already proved that doesn't work! That's my rambling for the night. I'm going to go to bed and lay it at the foot of the Cross. God knows.... He knows! Peace is what I need, and He is the only one who can give it to me!!!! Thankful for my blog and my blog buddies who always direct me back on the right path. I don't feel so conflicted any more. Somehow writing it all out gives me a much clearer picture of what I'm here for and why! My God, My family, and my friends! That's it! That's where I'm at!

*Walk with your eyes open, live a life examined; abide in Christ so that you can see with the eyes of Christ all the chances you have to change the world one obedient opportunity at a time.

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